Waiting Period

It's official I am a stay at home mommy to a very energetic, often opinionated, two year old. You know what that means, it is Wednesday and I have not put on make up or ran a brush through my hair this week(I may have brushed my hair once or twice ;). To some of you, it sounds like I am living the dream and maybe I am, it's just not my dream. While I absolutely love all of the quality time I get to spend with my son, I truly miss being in the classroom. The past few months I have pondered whether it is even Gods plan for me to be a teacher. I have asked and prayed and prayed and asked for God to fill me in on the path I should be taking. Should I even keep pursuing education? Am I meant to be elsewhere? Well God did answer me. Of course not in the obvious -yes Ashley,keep pursuing teaching, that is what you are meant to do answer I was wanting. He did it in the way that says I hear you, have faith, and Wait. Ugh don't you just hate when things don't play out just like they did in your head :) This is how God really answered me, he led me to read Lamentations 3. And by led I mean he threw it in my face at every turn. I mean for weeks I couldn't look at anything without a scripture from this chapter coming up. In normal Ashley fashion, it took me weeks to grasp what he was actually telling me. Side note- my aunt has always called me ketchup(catch up)because I was always the last person to get the joke. Anyways, I read this chapter and read it and read it until one day I was reading a daily devotional that had Lamentations 3:24 "the Lord is my portion; therefore, I will wait in him." It hit me like a ton of bricks, I mean duh it was that simple. He was saying, Ashley I am all that you need, you will wait and put your trust in me. Once I got that through my thick skull, I have had absolute peace about this waiting period. Do I still wonder what I am meant to do? Yes. Do I stress about it and keep "nagging" God to give me an answer? No, I have my answer, this is my waiting period. No matter the outcome I know that Gods plan for my life is good and whatever plan I have pales in comparison. So I say Yes Lord. Yes to patiently waiting for your perfect timing and rejoicing while I wait!